These are only some of the emails (or other) I have received from Bobby's friends.  These kids have taken the time to contact me to make sure I am OK and to share their feelings with me.  They will never know how many times my heart cries out "thank you" when I read them.  These show how really special these kids are.

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He is a friend to remember,
a friend we love so much.
The memory runs through my mind,
of the last time we touched.
He lived life to the fullest, and with so much love
and from one little mistake he looks down on us from above.
He was always there to make you laugh when your day was going wrong
Where was he when we had to say 'So long?'
Why did it have to end this way and with so much pain?
Since he left this world,
things have never seemed the same.
I no longer look forward to tomorrows,
because I know that they will never be the way they were before.
Not seeing your face, not hearing your voice
I wish there could have been some choice.
Life can begin and end so fast,
the memory of Bobby will always last.
I wish there were some way I could have said goodbye,
the thought of him runs through my head as I look up into the sky.
Knowing that he is looking down on us with a smile on his face,
Remembering the life he lived before he left this place.
If his life didn't end so quick he would have gotten far,
I might have had one last goodbye.
but I never knew his life was going to end so fast.
So remember this.....
Life life to your fullest, because it could end real fast.
Base your life on the future but keep the memories of the past.
By Ashley Inman

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A BLIND ROAD
So much unshared love at heart
Yet the world tries to tear it apart

When the smoke is gone
Do you want to be remembered as a faceless pawn
Or someone who made it across this endless lawn

As you look upon that face that sends a chill up your spine
Take a moment to rewind
So you can try to understand what's on their mind

Step off your porch and walk through this rain
In spite of differences, share the pain
When this downpour ceases, you may find that we're all one in the same.
By Wes

 

Dear Mrs. Bellah,
Hi, my name is Jenny. I was one of Bobby's friends, he made a huge impact on my life. I loved him and he was always there for me. I am sorry that I haven't contacted you before this point, but I didn't really know how. I still often think of Bobby and he is always showing up in my dreams. :) I still wish that he could be here with us. One night I had a dream about him. He said that he only had a little bit of time here and that he was going to go see you while he was here. We had an actual conversation and this is strange, but I remember that he cut his hair, and it looked good. :) It was like he was there. I was going to call you and ask you if you had a dream about him that same night, just to see if it was really him. I didn't know how to approach you and I didn't want to make you upset. I just wanted to write and let you know that you are in my prayers. I really don't know you all that well, but from what people say you are a great person. I don't know if you remember me or not, but I am the one who gave you and your daughters daisies at Bobby's funeral.

God is watching out for you and I look up to you so much as a person. Anyone that can survive what you have been through is an awesome person. You may not know this, but you have touched my life. I love your website. Every time I go there I cry. It touches me in so many ways. I want share a poem with you that I wrote the day that Bobby died. As I got off of the bus I started thinking of a poem, and when I got home I wrote down. Shortly after that I found out exactly why I had written this poem. James told me about Bobby.

My Friend

You're as beautiful as a rose,
From your head to your toes.
No one could ever take your place,
Because in my heart there's a special space.

There is so much we share,
Little things to show we care.
I'm not sure what it is about that voice,
But it always helps me know what's the right choice.

You help me out,
You help me learn what life is all about.
I don't know what I would do,
Without a friend like you.

I remember the day so well, and I had no idea why I was sad or why I wrote this poem. Well I am sorry if I have upset you, I just wanted you to know you mean a lot to me. Thank you for your time. Write back if you would like to. May God bless you!
Love always,
Jenny Williams

 

Dear Miss Laura,
Hi! I am Tiffaney Tyler. I never had the chance to meet you, but I had the chance to meet your loving son, Bobby. I met him through Stephanie Borland. He had a smile from ear to ear when I met him. I was thinking, how, in a million people, could anyone meet such a talented, respectful, well-manneres, gorgeous, young man. I thought there was no one in the world like him. But when I mat him, it was too good to be true and those gates were opened. We are all coping with the grief in our own ways. Bobby was so funny and was a great person to talk to. He is one of those once in a lifetime kind of guys. Just think, he is one more guardian angel watching over you. I love him with all of my heart. I know he is there to kiss and hug you when you get up every morning and when you go to sleep. You may not feel it yet, but the time will come when you will. He is still here, you just can't see him except for deep in our hearts. I love you!!!God Bless you and your family. My love is sent to you. 
Love Always,
Tiffaney Tyler

Mom, I know I could have written you on your email, but I want everyone to read this. I want you to know I love you like my own and I always have. I miss Bobby so much and so does everyone else , but I don't think we would be able to make it through with out you and this sight. Thank you so very much for thinking of us and know now that, "everybody knows his name" (kid rock).
Kevin, me (Carrie) and the rest of my family just want to let you know were thinking of you. Hope that this troubled time gets easier day by day.
You know bobby was a very special person to a lot of people, he touched the lives of many which you will never know, but in his absents I believe he touched more lives then anyone, in my heart ever could or has. Bobby had a gift and it was that even in his time of need he liked to help others, he listened.  When Bobby died I believe it hit my little brother harder than any death he had ever been through, not because he was so young, but because he was a DEAR FRIEND  someone to talk to in times of need and someone that understood, and not just said they did. I remember one of the first nights
Bobby ever stayed the night with Kevin, we were all sitting in the room and the boy's were acting like they were part of a click (gang) I told them they weren't hardass so don't try to be, Bobby replied by saying were not trying to
be hardasses we just are!! We laughed about it for a little bit then bobby said no I just playing were just having a good time. You know ever time I saw Bobby he would say something to make me laugh so that how I remember Bobby. We really miss seeing his smiling face.
Always know you have friends that are there. Bobby is also with us helping us all deal with this.

I want to let you know that I really look up to you right now more than ever, because your not afraid to cry when it's too much, but your always strong through your tears.  And I know sometimes you wonder if you've made any difference at all.  So I thought I'd tell you on all of our behaves that you have.  I know you don't see much of a change and that it's easy for me to say that, because I've never been in trouble.  But it's so true!  Without you and Amy I'd be lost inside my own dark little world.  I still wonder every night "why Bobby", but I always remember things that you would say.  Things like; "It's all a part of the big plan".  I love you Laura and I'll always know you as "MOM"  !!!!!!                           X.O.X.O.
                           Dusty
Bobby always seemed to know just what to say at the right time. His family took me in with open arms when it seemed like no one else would. Laura treated me as if she was my own mother and if it wasn't for her and Bobby I don't think I would have ever been able to feel love again. My life is filled with love and I give thanks to God and the Bellah family. Love Always, Trinity 

My name is Ashley Inman. I was one of Bobby's friends. I knew him
well, even though I didn't see him but 5-6 times. I wanted you to know that I miss him too. Every time I am having fun, I stop and think how much more fun it would be with Bobby there. He always brought the fun to wherever he went.  Right along with a big smile. I just wanted to tell you that I am sorry, and I miss him too. I cant say that I understand how you feel because I don't.  You were his mom, me a friend. I talk to Bobby all the time, I miss him a lot.  If you ever need someone, I am here.  I love your website. It is awesome. I just recently heard about it, and now there isn't a day that I don't go into it.  Bobby was great, any which way around. He was so smart, he always had an answer before you got finished with the question. I loved his singing most of all. He sang so great. He was always fun to be around. Well, you could just he was Bobby. When I found out, I didn't believe it. It hit me so hard that I couldn't. I kept finding myself asking, 'Why Bobby?' He had so much going for him. At least we all know that he is in a great place, and now that they have him it will be even better. He was always so fun to be with. I remember at the Christmas/Thanksgiving parade, a pretty girl was going by sitting up on the back seat. Bobby picked up a fake flower and ran it out there to her. I cant say that was anyone in this world that disliked Bobby. Everyone loved him, loved being around him, loved hearing him sing, ect. He was great whichever way you put it. He was Bobby Bellah. Well mom, I just wanted to write you back, and get that off my chest. Remember that I am here anytime you need me. I love you! 
Ashley

 
This poem reminds me of something Bobby would say if he had the chance. If u want, u can put it on the site. I found it on-line a couple of weeks after Bobby's death.

We are not put here by chance. God put us here for a purpose, and our lives are never fulfilled and complete until his purpose becomes the foundations and center of our lives. Before I go...

When my life has reached its very end, and I take that final breath I want to know what I left behind, some 'good' before my death
I hope that in my final hour, in all honesty I can say
That somewhere in my lifetime, I have brightened someone's day
That maybe I have brought a smile to someone else's face
And made a moment a little sweeter while they dwelled here in this place
Lord, please be my reminder, and whisper softly in my ear...
To be a giver, not a taker in the years I have left here
Give to me the strength I need, open up my mind and soul
That I might show sincere compassion and love to others before I go
For if a heart not be touched by me, and not a smile was left behind...
Then the life that I was blessed with, will have been a waste of time
With all my heart, I truly hope to leave something here on Earth
That I touched another, made them smile, and gave to my life...Worth

Thanx mom, I love you!

 

Hi, my name is Nikki Clark. I was a friend of Bobby's . I want you know that we all miss him very much. Some more than others, but a little part of all of us is missing. I cant honestly say that I know where your coming from, because if I did it would be a lie. Bobby was a very special person, and he always made everybody happy. I want you to know that you did a good job in raising him. Even though Bobby didn't live a very long life, the 15 years that he was here, in touched so many different people, in so many different ways. I met him through other friends, and I want to thank them a bunch for giving me the opportunity to meet someone so special, so special as Bobby. I really don't have a lot to say, so I am going to let you go. If u need someone to talk to, my # is 409-894-3045
-Love Always-
Nikki


Laura

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